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[Dixie is a girl with notable red fox features (ears, tail, tapetum lucidum), who tends towards pretty, casual, feminine outfits. It is not possible to tell a Family affiliation from her wardrobe aesthetic. Her age is eerily indeterminate, though she does vibe as being on the older side.

She can often be found sitting on the edge of the stage smoking her pipe between (or sometimes during?) ongoing performances.

Alternatively, if she’s given you the map to one of her hangout spots, you can easily find her there if you follow it.

Hit her up for whatever!]

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You say that, but I keep getting more and more horrible things to remember forever.

[blinks at him owlishly over her plate]

Throw them in the ocean before they give you depression?

-Wait, you can do that? Like, on purpose?

I haven’t been on the ocean before, but you could try? They’re not superglued to you, are they?

No, but they are in my mind, which is hard to extract things from, historically.

[Nom.]

Oh you took them already. You already have the depression. I understand now.

That was maybe a mistake?

Why'd you have to put it like that...

And I mean, it's partially the visions, partially the Performances.

It’s what you’re telling me!

[she is maybe listing in her seat a little as she eats All This Poison, but she doesn’t seem in danger of falling out of it and her speech is clear]

Anyway, that’s not new. But all my suggestions for depression that’s already in your head are ‘drugs,’ sooooooo I’m not sure they’re going to be the most helpful to you? I think there’s also ‘counseling,’ but hell if I know who offers that anymore.

What was it that made you get started on all those drugs, anyway?

Oh, I think it was probably going so mad that if I looked at the world through clear eyes a moment longer I was going to chew off all of my own limbs and then see if I really could go off and corrupt a dynasty.

Maybe? It’s very fuzzy at this point.

Wait.

Corrupt who??? And how????

I don’t remember, I took too many drugs.

Damn. That sounds like quite the story.

I know, right?

Anyway, though. I didn’t want to remember clearly, so I made that happen instead of waiting. “It’s okay to use anaesthetics if that’s all that’s reliably available to you.” I still remember telling myself that much.

[Hmmm...]

Do you really think that us learning more about the selves we see in the visions is that important, then? If you prefer to forget all the bad stuff, yourself.

This is going to sound a little like a weasel answer, but I think the choices you make about what to learn and not learn are important.

After all, I had to learn before I could pick what to blur and unlearn, hm? A screen is not the same as an absence.

Edited 2025-01-06 07:24 (UTC)

-Ah, so when you said we'd be thanking you later, it's because we could test the waters for what to expect from our visions without having to actually take them?

[her tail flicks]

I wanted to be a little bit kind.

[Oh... setting down his fork.]

...

...

Well, I guess today's the day I thank you for it, then.

That Performance... it's what made me decide to stop taking them. The visions, I mean.

You’re welcome, but thank yourself also, yes? It is your choice to stop, and give yourself time to heal.

After that Performance? ...It wasn't that hard of a decision anymore.

[...]

Did all the Producers receive visions like that, too? ...Did any of them finish the "story" those visions tell?

“Did they finish the story…”

That’s not for me to tell. And I suspect if you asked us of our own experiences, we’d all have different answers.

Visions won’t be an unknown concept, though.

Then, what about you? Did you finish the story from your visions? Or did you stop?

[the sweet smell of asphodel fills his nose, making him dizzy. his vision doubles. he can see two of her—then four—then eight—]

Sorry, can we talk about something else?

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